I’m feeling happy like finally. It’s all worth the wait. We may have ups and downs, have our emotional moments where we throw emotional tantrums at each other, but everything is just..magical. :D Clubbing with Christina for her birthday yesterday night is awesome. Swaying to the slow music, going crazy over the high songs and really just going crazy over Kpop songs for once in a club. HAHA! It seems like life is back on track.. No more PLAY, no more drama. Just simply having fun with friends. :)

Sunny Holidays is making me dread work though. With all their odd systems and inconsistency within the management is just making me so sian. Oh wells. Baby went home already and I’m just so bored. Jie is not home. Going low on cash after all the huge spending on food and going to party.

25 may. A day that I cant wait for it to arrive.

What Ling said is true… “Its not her choice to make. He chose you.”

就算多么爱你也没有用。。因为你根本都不属于我。总有一天，你会需要离开我。。我可以装着我不在乎，但我的心越来越痛。。一天的过去是等于一天更靠近离开你的到来。

这一个月里，我们之间的感情有很多变化。。我有时希望你还是我的哥哥，但有时很开心能变成你的情人。。和你在一起时我很幸福。。但。。我。。不敢太幸福。

拿得起放不下。我不想让你知道我的心里话，因为你知道了会马上离开。。但那种痛我快要承受不了了。。

I’m currently in a very confused state of mind which leads me to here. I thought the whole day and was finding for an outlet to vent to. I can tell as many friends about it, but there is just something cooped up within me that I cant seem to let go. That call from Chiwai, is becoming quite a torture for me.

All these arguments. Can everyone just grow up and see things from a bigger picture? Whats with all the pettiness? Whats with all the possessiveness? What Melvin said was right. “Friends come and go. We all have to accept that.” At the moment when he said that, it might not be for me but that sentence is so speaking to me right now.

Whatever I was doing for the past few weeks, has impacted me quite a lot. We might always complain that its so dramatic. But looking back, things have changed so rapidly that I cant even catch up. Yesterday was the maximum. I really didnt know what I was doing. Things were really screwed up.. All the snapshots that I have in my mind right now.. is torturing me.

It’s been a long time since I ever posted something and the reason why I am coming up here to post is because I am feeling messed up. Coming to America made me learnt a lot but the same time, it screwed me up a lot. 

I spent my afternoon just eating lunch at Lothian. HAHA! Me and Tian got so many plates of food and ended up wasting most of them, especially the yummy grilled salmon. We had a great afternoon resting and like we went to T mobile to check out my BB prepaid plans, went to 7 eleven to get our Nong Shim Noodles dinner! Yaaay!

Eating ben&jerrys now. Today’s the 12 Mar. 3 more days to 2nd month with my dommie. :D

我真的很不开心。。 没有人能了解我的心情。很想自己一个人去跑步。

At least we have each other.

Change is good and where there is change, there is growth. But of course, as humans, we tend to not like some change that make us step out of our comfort zone. Hahaha! :D

I myself have gone through many changes, change in character, change in mindset, change in my friends as the season in life change. In just less than 6 months time, I might be on my way to Florida for attachment or maybe working in a local company and sending my classmates off to Florida. I still have not really made up my mind. But I need to soon. GAHH!

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