Yesterday(Friday) was an awesome day, a day that I have never felt so happy before. Everyone was just so friendly and like everyone just clicked supernaturally. :D 07 guys and tricia coming to the musical, the pearl incident at KOI, the 7.A.D meetup, the musical itself, and the catching up with primary school friend, the chats we had at Raffles, the stupid jumps that we did in the middle and etcetc. Different happenings with different people.

The musical spoke to me alot. Brooks’ words voiced out what I deeply felt these few days. Something like “Im not as good as you think, no more innocence etcetc de.” then Jesse’s words are like God telling me his answer to how I am feeling. I teared. But I have to admit when I come home on Cleo’s van, i was keeping silent all the way. Because I felt empty. Still empty. Daddy, I don want this emptiness.

I can truly be myself now, I realised. Doing stupid things shamelessly, speaking words that I know others wont be offended because they know I don mean it. Just as I typed all these, I see a picture in my thoughts. A picture of me resting peacefully on a sofa. It seems like I feel so blissful in that picture, with cushions all around me, no more aches but just rest. I really need to stop entertaining all those devilish thoughts and just labour to rest.

Daddy, I dont want my dreams anymore. I just want a simple life, with simple happiness. Working for my dreams is tiring..